International relations and its inspirations

Mae's friend kohsuke came to Singapore recently and ohyea. we (mae, jing, liangyi n i) spent our days bringing him round the island.
Went sentosa *smiles* and came back a shade darker.
Went bugis, and the market near there and made him eat "weird" things.
Went Haji lane and shisha-ed and made funny videos.
Went to crazy elephant and drank with him, mae, jing and danny (another of mae's uni friends) and we "vadalized" on the table to leave our mark there.
And more.....

I really had a lot of fun getting to know this japanese friend who just delights in our little dot of a country.
Bringing him around made me realise that SIngapOre isn't that bad...it has it's beautiful side too.
I now love my country a little better than before.

Meeting him has also made me inspired to be brave and travel the world alone and make new friends. It has also made me more determined and inspired to perfect my "blah" japanese and reach greater heights and fly over there for a month or two to explore and study the laguage in a school there.

*ka-ching* needed. real bad. hahax!

if your cry for it instictively, it is the dearest isnt it?

Dance....

i have come to love it.
i like the feel of the movements.
i like the way the beat moves within me.
i like the way emotions can be conveyed with the flick of a finger and tilt of a head.



when mom and dad came against my desire to learn it at ECNAD......
mom and i both drew the anger out of each other.....
i wouldn't listen
they wouldn't listen.



the tears flowed
on instinct.
the sense of loss was just so scarily painful.........
i cried like a freaking baby
only to realise that its because i cherish it so much. The most in fact.
I had to calm down and let them understand.
Calm down and fight for my chance, with a quiet strength and acceptance as never before.


We could not seem to talk face to face
I ended up having to thank technology for letting me use sms-es to convey my dreams and views about dance and ECNAD.

They finally agreed=)
I am waiting in anticipation for lesson to commence next Wednesday!!!!!!!




all i can say....
is thank you......................

a start of a new journey

The success of the enshrinement ceremony and kick off meeting and cultural performance......

in a simple sentence........

it would never be possible without the mystic law.

to be at the final rehearsal and feel the happiness and anticipation in your bones that it is really thoroughly finally here....
to watch the entire performance magically unfold like clockwork on the actual day after a day of screw ups....
to have the strength to go on despite pain, sickness and other obstacles...
and even more mystically, strength that pulsates like never before at your weakest moment.....
to hear the many different little stories of triumph, little stories of how each one protected and served the law.....
to see the strength, determination, drive and fighting spirit of all......
too look back on the long journey at the marking of the start of a new one

touching, beautiful

completely indescribable.

at the end of it all.......
there was a feeling of loss.....
getting used to being free again.....
getting used to not seeing the rest of those performers regularly......



then comes the biggest question...

What's next??

What are you going to strive for?

can you find your true calling? your true mission?

and how do you inspire??




i m searching............



most of the time, we already know the perfect answer, but we run around in circles surveying the scene and thoughts of others,
but we will get there. we will find the feeling for it somehow.

The wall

Unseen and invisible it grows
slowly but surely.
Like a virus it slowly
eats away the bond.

Virtually i can always reach out
yet i mock at the irony
that in reality
i can't.

It wasn't so some time before,
where wonderful camaraderie
was apparent.
And now i slowly feel
that i am losing my once safe haven.

A missed step, a ruined dance.
What beautiful turn must i use,
To rise gracefully from the fall
and save my dance in life?


I mock
I despair
I snort
at the wall.
I wish
I pray
That it will crumble and fall.





before it crushes me.