dropping

i didnt want all these in the first place....
the crying jags
the emotinoal roller coaster rides
the sleepless nights
the talking down
the anger and arrogance devouring my soul
the cold fury
the bitchy demenour
the high and mighty asshole shit...........


i knew all these negetivity were within me

i know its an innate nature like my 2nd breath

i ran away from places that will make me more so...
no lawyer....no doctor.....no coporate high flyer as my careers, i thought.....


but its no difference,

i've become more and more the person that i know i am but dont want to be


i was inspired in october by people so pure and strong......


but maybe....it's cus i ain't them.........

so it can only be an inspiration and too late to be a reality reflected on me.................




so
face it lady
take the slash of the blade you threw...
bite the bullet and if you miss and if it kills you
it kills you