when it hurts the most...

when it hurts the most????
it can be the pain of losing someone important in your life.............

but.....it can also be something else....
i experienced once again today......
how much it can hurt when....
the people closest to you don't believe in you or do not show that they do.......

this person.....with one cold look filled with utmost seriousness (whether it was a joke or not.... ) stared stright in my eyes and added a smarting cutting sentence that totally undermined my abilities-gifts that i thought that i had....
gifts that i work hard....very very hard to improve on......

talk about adding bitter icing to some already bitter cake......

you already know you are not the best and all you cling on to is that tiny sense of self worth, confidence and hope.....pushing your own limits......
yet.....with a single sentence.......someone can break down your wall.....
the worst part is that this exact same person is a person you never undermined and believe wholeheartedly in their ability........some person you believe in......

so to the world out there.....don't be like this person.....
whether you mean it as a joke or not....
a sentence that crushes another's confidence and abilities hurts....alot alot....
although it may be human nature......
although one day you may even catch me doing what i tell you not to ( if it happens please stop me)
although it may be difficult.....please do try.........

say something nice not something that bites....

as for me.............
no matter how hurting it may be........
after the tears.......
is the time to look up and ahead and press on......
though one may look back and the tears can't help flowing........
with every tiny step........
i will do my best to achieve what i believe is ment for me......