FINAL SEM...

like arrgghhh!!!

the last time i was here ( yea sarah, u were right, 29 AUg 08!!)
i was still working in that company.....


nOw, i finished work at a second company and is already almost at the END of my first week back at school..

like, HOW FAST IS THAT??!


Looking at the workload presented by my lecturers....


i forsee hell in the near future.


i keep telling myself i will live through all these,
encouraging myself that i will be able to help do up a nice entertaining event for kenshu,
as well as getting inspration for the routines used in the above said event by attending dance classes at Studio Wu <3.


well, lookin' on da BRIGHTER side,

i did manage to squeeze in play time during my final week of holiday=)

-KBOX-ed with HuiTing and went Haji Lane to seesha (hell, i don't think i spelt that right..)

-lunched with HuiJeen, Joanne and Sarah @ Jurong Point (cus the lovely ladies are now ALL in the westside in Uni. hahax=P. Am looking foward to more makan sessions^^ )

-dinner-ed and starbucked (JP's treat!=D) at our old secondary school hangout -Compass Point with Joanne, Jon Lee and Jon Pang, and of course our crasher huijeen *kiddin=P* it has been AGES since i seen the 2 jons! i think JP is taller, i m positive he GREW.like he isnt tall enough. hahax. It was great catching up will all of you^^ hope next time more XMCHorale people can make it^^ . It will probably be the weekends though, cus half of them are in NS and they book out at the weirdest hours. Sometimes it even seems like a "heng-suay" thing when it comes to meeting up for dinner.




:::THIS WEEK:::
15/10-went to watch REDOUBLED by Singapore Dance Theater. One of the features in this year's Da:ns Festival! It was a treat from weiqi cus he wanna thank me for helping with the editing of the steps and all that in the MidAutumn FEstival Performance for Kolam Ayer CC. hahax. Redoubled features 2 dance pieces.
1. Sometimes I think I Remember -Choreographer: Jeffery Tan (resident choreographer & senior artiste in SDT)
It was a nice emotive piece which shows the lead sometimes in a dream , sometimes waking up, with videos and voices that keep questioning. All the questions were thought provoking.
like -"is she really there? is she not? sometimes i feel all alone. / as a child we lay together and you promised me, it was our secret-a promise, but maybe you wanted something else" *these arent the exact words but snippets of what i remember and of course credit of it all still goes to the piece's creators"*
i could somehow feel the pain that the characters were going through. the confusion, and anguish and frustration.

but the beautiful part was that at the end, the voice said......

whatever happens.

"keep walking.."

and it ended there. startling and provoking, encouraging after all the dark emotions where exposed.

2. Pellucid -choreographer: Kuik Swee Boon (aka as ruiwen lao shi to some of us=))
the write up in the programme for this piece was rather short, stating that it's theme was "simplicity"- with "miracles and fantasy" and life being back to basics. *as described in the programme booklet*
Knowing laoshi, it would be abstract.
And i kept wondering, what is this trying to tell me? which part of it is simplicity?
As i watched, a story/ theory formed....
The characters were at home, home from work and it's raining. She couldn't sleep and is sitting on the bar stool in the kitchen. He gives her a drink of water. They try to sleep. He does, she doesnt and is awake once more. Fear grips her, she shines the torch at the threatening figures but maybe they weren't really there. Maybe it is simply about being alone?
She sees the carpets being rolled up...could this be the vision of riches being stripped away and going back to a simple life?
She struggles,he awakes,he calms her down once more. The simple life at home?

hmmmnnnn...........
Maybe it is really about the audience watching and the searching within them the simplicity in their lives by reflecting and thinking about the similarities in their lives to the movements and images the dancers portray.

i may never know what laoshi truely wants to say,
but this is my interpretation....

in one word it is absract. its just absract. but it makes you think. ^^

and it is making me MISS ecnad .

hahax.


OH, on the quite bright side of things......

i am 19 already.
and i had a REALlY memorable birthday...

yea, i had my share of presents, clothes from mummy n daddy, bags from my chapter i/cs and communicators, a damn CUTE 2009 schedule book and other gifts from friends, promises of belated treats and gifts, and numerous well wishes from people

all of which i have to say a BIG THANK YOU=)
but you know the best part????????!!!


the most freaking MEMORABLE PART???



it was that on the day of my birthday,


my dearest mommy treated me like CINDERALLA.


before you can say "awww, so sweet, she's still her mommy's princess"

hold up.

let me finish my sentence...



yes she treated me like Cinderalla.......BEFORE the BALL that is.....



my mom gave me life skills training of washing clothes and using the washing machine, ironing , hanging etc etc etc.
on my birthday.


and she was LAUGHING NON STOP.-.-
cus she says i look DAMN FUNNY when i do Housework,
i drop the pole for hanging clothes, she laugh.
i hit the glass door with the same pole, she laugh.
the plants drop out of the flower pot and the soil drop the floor, she laugh.
hand washing the more delicate frabics without having a stool to sit down (hey, shun bian train my legs ma, i been out of dance practice in awhile you knOw!!!), she STILL laugh!

actually, almost everything she laugh!


like ARRGGGHHHHHhhhhhhHHHH!



hahax. but yea it was a memorable essential bithday lesson. lol!


what are the things i really miss now????


1. my maid (she went back for a month holiday. which explains the entire housework fiasco)
2. ECNAD! like, gosh i miss my contemparary dance school! there is so much more i want to learn from howchoon and the rest. BUT, i have to keep myself focused and comit proper for the May dance project. Thats why i signed up for Studio WU cus they allow me to be VERY flexible with my schedule=). BUT I STILL MISS ECNAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
3. ****
4. SLEEP!



oh well. NIGHTS PEEPS!


or rather, good morning. hahax.

Updates.........

hey world,

girl in office now.
finished 2nd last semester a month ago
in 3rd wk of job now.
hope they'll extend contract=p

thing is, 1st week, excel file and event.
2nd week, still stare at excel file.
3rd week, excel over n done with. no new excel to stare at.

all the other miscelleneous jobs have been done

lucky thing is that i have a damn nice view from my window=)
i have greens to look at to rest my eyes (which i forgot to do alot when i was staring at the excel files.




i do hope they give me somehing that can sustain for more weeks than one

despite slacking being shuang, i'd rather be occupied.





movin on to other things,

i am gOnna be dancing again=)
totally chionging rehersals now.....
cheography nOt finalised yet.....shucks.....




and i have alot of pending art work for student activity.................................

no sleep tonight again......

was kinda sianned after the final meeting on wednesday where things were to be presented....

i m confused as to what my behaviour should be......

okay granted, i need better time management......i should have finished asking the other party all the questions......
but i was seriously curious....
i was giving a hypothesis...................
u mean i cant even do that?
what if it really happens?? what is the correct way of handling??

okay, i sound like i m trying to answer for my actions, covering my own ass and pushing my right.......


i should stop that....



girl here is inexperienced ya.....havent been doing activity in ages.

but yet again,

what is the truth? what is the correct way?

do i just take everything at face value.....

can i even ask?


sometimes, i think i should just shut up, don't use brain and stone....
cus say anything also can't do anything deshyo?

mom says its not about them, its about you.
yea........
i tink so too....
the basic realm of anger, the innate ability of arrogance, the want for perfection..............
it runs like an enbalm in my family's blood.....


am so blardy tired by all these confusing things and situations......




don't think i m ready for anything, needless to say leading...

mae once said that we are never ready for these sort of thing........

maybe, maybe.....



i even have time to blog, oh my......this job is cute...

i have japanese class homework....
wished i brought to office man......



sigh......





i so miss the kids from childcare







gosh, michelle has a blogshop....
i m so freaking tempted can???

totally gonna buy at least 2=pp

hahahahahx

will put her link up in the corner =PpP




crazy little world that we live in...........

Gifts that you have should be used to make good.

Isnt that so?
if you had a gift for something, shouldnt it be used to make the world a better place?
shouldnt it be used to say something real and touch the hearts of others? evoke a thought in others?
shouldnt it be positive?

when we do a performance, be it music or dance, or when we do an art piece,
behind all the fun and enjoyment on stage,

there is a message the artiste wants to put across
an issue that the artisite wants to talk about
a value that they want to portray
an emotion or a story that they want to show
a viewpoint that they want to speak of
a picture that they want to paint
a pain they want to tell
a joy they want to sound


it is this insight that moves people. the thoughts and emotions behind it all.

there's a reason why i like the band simple plan. their lyrics are raw and true. it relates.

it advocates sometimes even.


all these arty farty song writing, picture painting, dance cheographing?
yea it entertains.
my the upbeat ones really rawks the house down!=)

but most importantly? it reaches out to people, influences people.






i believe in this......


if you have a gift, use it.....and use it well.








that was all that i wanted you to understand........................
maybe next time, i should just shut it , save it and write it.

You Can't stop the beat!

Whoever watched Hairspray will know this song....

an excerpt:

You cant stop an avalanche

As it races down the hill

You can try to stop the seasons, girl

But ya know you never will

And you can try to stop my dancin' feet

But i just cannot stand still

Cause the world keeps spinnin'Round and round

And my heart's keeping time To the speed of sound

I was lost til i heard the drums Then i found my way

Cause you can't stop the beat

Ever since this old world began

A woman found out if she shook it

She could shake up a man

And so i'm gonna shake and shimmy it

The best that i can today

'Cause you cant stop

The motion of the ocean

Or the sun in the sky

You can wonder if you wanna But i never ask why

And if you try to hold me down

I'm gonna spit in your eye and say

That you cant stop the beat!

ok, i know some parts of the song may sound cheesy, but the beat's infectious in that retro kind of way so to hell with it. And it is speaking the truth isnt it?

Well its true for me=)

I wish i have more hours in my day to do everything and to dance more.

My journey in my interest, dance?

It started as a kid....

dragged my little brother and "cheographed" this ribbon dance thing to welcome my aunt.

he willingly did it okay!! awww man....wish i took pictures, then i would use it as BLACKMAIL!! kidding=P

I then asked for ballet classes....

parents said no......

but i always enjoyed watching figure skaters and ballroom dancers on TV thereafter.

Then came primary school...

I remember my classmates and i sang and danced to Westlife's Coast to Coast.

oh the horror!! it was only "cheographed" the day before, and....nevermind......we were all young once. i don't want pcitures for this one.

Then came secondary school...

by then, during CCA selections, I could never qualify for dance in school cus i was stiff like a stick.

N i was selected for choir<33

n i love singing too u knw^^ miss my choir mates=)

however, in secondary 2, i helped learn the steps to Jolin Tsai's hit See my 72 transformations and Qi shi jing shen and danced together with my classmates for a teacher's day item..

i enjoyed it.

i didnt have a fringe then and looked like an egg on stage, so no way for pictures....no way.....i jus wanna rmb shaking to the beat.

There were also choir Melizo 2 and 3=) The musicals had both singing AND dancing.

I had the best of both worlds=)

i can totally hear Miley Cyrus singing Hannah Montana's opening song "best of both worlds" right now.....

Well....then came poly and i WANTED to go for the dancesport cca (ballroom, u know salsa and the likes?) but the then PC had lots of meetings that i had to attend and they usually clashed with it....so i had to forgo.

I watched Dirty Dancing 2: Havana Nights as well as the original Dirty Dancing that year and i was mesmerised......LOVED the dancing in there! and the music!!! oh man. it was on replay mode for a long long time.

Then came STepUp=)

i had my eyeballs GLUED to the screen for that one. watched it countless times already.

it took my breath away.

i was like.....

OH MY GOODNESS I WANNA DANCE!!!

i saw Heidi and Travis's PASO DoUble competition piece on So You think You can dance.

I was on the bus watching TV mobile. I didnt want to get off! i vowed to one day learn that style too=)

Soon in, came september kenshu and i cheographed the Retro piece to the song greased lightning and man it was just SO FUN=)

*gimme more gimme more*

thus, when the opportunity came for me to choose to be in the dance team for spiko......

hehe. i jumped in right away! oh yea!

it exposed me to contemparary dance and i love it. I love the emotion you can evoke and the hidden messages portrayed with the right combination between the music, cheography and the emotion of the dancer.

it made me decide to really move it and sign up for ecnad. a contemparary dance school that i had been eyeing for quite awhile.

i love my lessons there=)

then STEPUP2: THE STrEEts! came!!!!!!

OMO!!!

it was smokin!!

loved every minute in the cinema i tell ya! i wanted to GETUp N dAnce!!!!!

gosh!!!!!

it was so so good!=) man can the moose guy and the leads dance!!

the final one in the rain??? oh my!!!! faints!!!

i wanted the songs in my MP3 right there and then.

cinemas should have an outlet for movie goers to buy songs of the movies and load them directly into their music players. yea. totally.

watched the video's of america's best dance crew on youtube also, and goodness some of them were in the movie! =)

Next up, i danced in a contemparary piece for the gala dinner right after spiko's actual day too=) loved it. loved the 2mins and 15secs of it all.
our final pose=)

I was kinda sad that it was all over

all i had was the classes at ecnad left.=)

then came ANOTHER opportunity!

a hiphop piece for the celebration dinner=)

gosh i had so much fun learning a new style!! through out it all, i had difficulty breaking out of the "ballerina-contemparary" mould. i was so used to it that i point my feet on instinct everytime i lift up my feet and have that floaty feel ....not very hiphoppy. hahax!

but then, i got alittle used to it though i still did not totally break the mould.

i TOTALLY ENJOYED THAT DAY'S PERFORMANCE.

i don't know how to describe it....but thing is, there wasn't much thinking of the dance steps when i danced. my body just seemed to flow with the music!! i could feel it in my veins!!gaahhh!! that's a first.

that feeling was just AMAZING.

completely...

it makes me wanna take up hiphop now too!!! oh no!!! where am i going to find the time??? BUT I WANT TO! I HAVE TO! hahax=P

wanna grab that class that teaches DongBangShinGi's "O.Jung.Ban.Hap." dance steps. OMO! HAWT!HAWT!HAWT!=DD too bad i couldnt go for Purple Line ivy ne-chyan!! TEACH ME SOON K???!

憶えてくださいね !!!　私の休み時　いしょに　ﾀﾞﾝｽｰ を　しましょ！＝）

our group pic=)

sigh. wanna go on dancing=)

ballet?? hiphop? salsa?? anyone??

HAHAx!=P

International relations and its inspirations

Mae's friend kohsuke came to Singapore recently and ohyea. we (mae, jing, liangyi n i) spent our days bringing him round the island.
Went sentosa *smiles* and came back a shade darker.
Went bugis, and the market near there and made him eat "weird" things.
Went Haji lane and shisha-ed and made funny videos.
Went to crazy elephant and drank with him, mae, jing and danny (another of mae's uni friends) and we "vadalized" on the table to leave our mark there.
And more.....

I really had a lot of fun getting to know this japanese friend who just delights in our little dot of a country.
Bringing him around made me realise that SIngapOre isn't that bad...it has it's beautiful side too.
I now love my country a little better than before.

Meeting him has also made me inspired to be brave and travel the world alone and make new friends. It has also made me more determined and inspired to perfect my "blah" japanese and reach greater heights and fly over there for a month or two to explore and study the laguage in a school there.

*ka-ching* needed. real bad. hahax!

if your cry for it instictively, it is the dearest isnt it?

Dance....

i have come to love it.
i like the feel of the movements.
i like the way the beat moves within me.
i like the way emotions can be conveyed with the flick of a finger and tilt of a head.



when mom and dad came against my desire to learn it at ECNAD......
mom and i both drew the anger out of each other.....
i wouldn't listen
they wouldn't listen.



the tears flowed
on instinct.
the sense of loss was just so scarily painful.........
i cried like a freaking baby
only to realise that its because i cherish it so much. The most in fact.
I had to calm down and let them understand.
Calm down and fight for my chance, with a quiet strength and acceptance as never before.


We could not seem to talk face to face
I ended up having to thank technology for letting me use sms-es to convey my dreams and views about dance and ECNAD.

They finally agreed=)
I am waiting in anticipation for lesson to commence next Wednesday!!!!!!!




all i can say....
is thank you......................

a start of a new journey

The success of the enshrinement ceremony and kick off meeting and cultural performance......

in a simple sentence........

it would never be possible without the mystic law.

to be at the final rehearsal and feel the happiness and anticipation in your bones that it is really thoroughly finally here....
to watch the entire performance magically unfold like clockwork on the actual day after a day of screw ups....
to have the strength to go on despite pain, sickness and other obstacles...
and even more mystically, strength that pulsates like never before at your weakest moment.....
to hear the many different little stories of triumph, little stories of how each one protected and served the law.....
to see the strength, determination, drive and fighting spirit of all......
too look back on the long journey at the marking of the start of a new one

touching, beautiful

completely indescribable.

at the end of it all.......
there was a feeling of loss.....
getting used to being free again.....
getting used to not seeing the rest of those performers regularly......



then comes the biggest question...

What's next??

What are you going to strive for?

can you find your true calling? your true mission?

and how do you inspire??




i m searching............



most of the time, we already know the perfect answer, but we run around in circles surveying the scene and thoughts of others,
but we will get there. we will find the feeling for it somehow.